What part of, don't even think about it, don't you understand???

I guess since I'm hitting such hard hitting topics right off the bat, we'll hit this one, since it's been quite popular lately. What part of I DO NOT WANT TO BE FIXED UP WITH ANY GUY do you not understand. I'm not into blind dates, I don't care that you think this guy is so nice. Leave me alone. I will purposely not even look at a guy if I know you are trying to fix me up with him, ask my mom, she tried that shit with this guy and I wouldn't even look at him. I am not a science experiment, I am not a zoo exhibit, and I think whatever poor sap guy you're trying to con into this feels the same way. Talk about freaking awkward, at least for me anyway. Id feel like a freaking kid trying to give the State of the Union Address with no warning or prep. I am not designed for this, or dating period. And any guy you try to fix me up with would probably hate you afterward anyway. I have no desire to be put through this cruel and unusual torture. That's illegal you know. And this is kinda on the same topic, but a little off; There are to leagues, I don't care what miss "make up will help your self esteem" thinks. There are people who are "out of ones league". A person can not have Anyone they want, face it, it's not going to happen. I'm not saying that we are still in the caste system or something like in olden day England, but it's true, I think everyone has a "range" that if they're going to find a guy, that's where he'll fit into. Ok, back to the original rant. Sticking someone with some strange guy is not a fun time, period. And just because you think you're happy because you have a guy doesn't mean that it's what's best for me. Quite frankly I think it would probably make things worse as of right now. Guys do not define our happiness, you can be happy or miserable either way. Also, guys do not fix broken hearts or wounds. The damage is still there, you just let him put a blanket over the wound, that's all. They do not have the power to fix it. I hate to break it to anyone who believes they can. YOU are the only one that can fix you. And the way I look at it, if a guy wouldn't have broke it in the first place, it wouldn't need effing fixed! Now I don't want anyone thinking I'm anti-guy or a lesbian or something, because I'm Not, I just have a stronger sense of reality than some people. LOL!!If by some strange cosmic event, I'm not destined to be alone, I will do it on MY terms, Not anyone else's. My life and my heart and my emotions are not to be entertainment for someone else. They are mine. So anyone even remotely thinking about fixing me up, just back off and leave me alone. And come to think of it, they say you have to love yourself before anyone else can love you, so quite trying, fate is telling you that you're wasting your time.

The key to self esteem....is make up????

So, anyone who knows me, knows that I lack self esteem and self confidence; Well today I learned the secret to getting more of both. Who knew that all I had to do was use some clown sticks and poof, like magic I would feel better about myself. Now, anyone who really knows me, knows how effing sarcastic I'm being right now, and that whoever in the world made this ridiculous comment doesn't know the first thing about me. I do, however, find it rather amusing, in the least. At first I thought it was just her being personable, and she wasn't really serious. I later realize that she's serious, and obviously crazy. I'm sorry, make up fixes nothing, in all reality, it probably creates more problems. For example, guys, how many times have u seen a girl at a club or a bar or whatever and was like, well, she's pretty, but then when u wake up next to her in the morning without all her make up, you're like, holy crap what happened!!! LOL And then of course there is the cost of buying all the stupid shit, and then the time wasted putting it on. This is time that I could be sleeping and money that I could be saving up for a new car. I am not a make up person in the slightest. I look at it like this, if someone is going to not like me or like me, I want them to do it for me, who I am, what I look like, not what I'm trying to be. (plus, y'all know that I'd stab myself in the eye w/ the stupid mascara anyway!!!) Of course, with make up comes hair styling like straightening and curling and hairspray and all those wonderful things that a)cost more money and b) kill your hair. My hair falls out fast enough, I don't need to hurry it along. Plus, everyone that knows me, knows that I am straightner-tarded. I just get frustrated when I try to operate the stupid thing and I usually give up. This is why I get my hair cut in a simple style. I take it out of the towel, comb it and go. That's it, no fuss. I am not a girley- girl. I do not like all these sissy things. It's not who I am, and it's not going to fix ANYTHING! I'm not going to hide away from the truth that I know. I'm going to face each day as me. It doesn't matter who likes me as long as I get up, go to work, and pay my taxes. This blog post could lead me into so many other rants, but alas, I must get to bed, I'm so tired. So anyone who ever thought of trying to tell me I should wear make up can just hole up that comment, because now you know I ain't gonna listen and you're wasting your breath...